Imperfection

I have a slight problem with perfectionism. Normally, I would be proud of being a perfectionist because it means I put out great work and get lots of attention for it, but in this case it's a bad thing. Why? Because I don't write enough. I think that everything I write has to be "epic" before it can be released to the world, and that means less of my world is shared with all of you.

Last fall I wrote three blogs per month...how absolutely pathetic. I experienced so much more than what I wrote about, but I hesitated to share because of my insecurity; the insecurity and fear of being judged if my writing isn't perfect. I have this complex that tells me I'm only worth something if I don't make any mistakes, and I'd like to work through that until that fear becomes less and less powerful as time goes on, because as we all know, everyone makes mistakes. I've made many in my day and I know I'll make many more, which means I need to become more accepting of myself, especially when those mistakes are made and not except when.

So, how do I start? I'll begin with setting a goal: I will write a blog AT LEAST once a week whether I feel like it or not; whether I'm inspired to or not. If I write more than that, bonus, but I'm committing to once a week. I just want to write more whether or not they are "epic", creatively crafted with a clever metaphor or embedded with lessons of personal growth and change. I'm inspired by those who can write about their experiences without needing every sentence to be perfect, so here I go. I am not perfect. And maybe, just maybe, I'll eventually realize while on this journey that there is beauty in imperfection. :)